asksodapopprincess:

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doesn’t help that one of my exes that I broke up with is following this blog too that I broke up with because I don’t even fucking know why

because then i didn’t feel alone and now i feel alone as fuck

just fucking shit fuck

it’s like

wow i really hate relationships i always end up getting hurt somehow and i honest to god don’t think i could ever trust someone very much again

but at the same time

wow have i never felt so alone ever

i mean i have a crush on someone and i have someone else that has a crush on me but i mean how the fuck do i even emotions i really can’t do this

i really want to tell the person i like that i like them and try to do something there but at the same time i’ll hurt the other person and i know that and i really can’t stand knowing that i hurt someone else again by choosing someone else over them or something cause that’s what happened before and wow look what happened there

shit happened

and fucking shit i don’t want to do that

maybe i should follow my own advice that i gave maxine today

“Oh you have a crush on someone? Do what I do and ignore it completely! :D”

cause that’ll do you any good

Aah yes now I realize who I feel like at the minute

that girl from Easy A

Olive or whatever

so i just realized

how come i always seem to remember my ex’s phone number when I’m drunk

whether it be off of sleeping pills, sleep deprivation in general or actual alcohol

it’s only then when i actually talk to one of my exes

welp